a lot has happened from losing our beloved pooch to welcoming another furry child a year after that, from struggling financially to getting better and unfortunately going back to struggle.
There have been lessons learnt and a lot of wisdom gained, also there has been the chance of learning new skills, of starting things new and finding new roads to walk.
My Art has been one of the casualties during this time.
I didn't create much, lack of inspiration, artist block... whatever you call it.
I had to start juggling too many things at once to feel I could relax and enjoy that talent of mine; sad I know and perhaps not the best choice as arts and crafts have always had a calming effect on me, but you can't force yourself to feel an inspiration that isn't there, life took over, responsibilities did too, and that ability to unwind simply has gone, for now.
I apologise for my silence but these things happen and there is not much I can do except for now taking steps to improve my situation and make sure we are all OK.
Some artists work better with struggle, I seem to need peace to create and I have none at the moment.
The good news is that I am doing my best to gain that peace of mind back and go back to a happier place, I am trying to look at things in a positive way, best I can manage.
One of the things I have learnt lately is that nothing can really happen overnight, you cannot feel depressed one moment and move straight to a state of elation. You can set yourself big goals, but you have to learn to split your journeys in steps and concentrate on them so not to be too overwhelmed by the enormity of your goal, especially if it is a very big one, it can simply feel completely out of your reach.
So... I am doing baby steps: I split my journey in legs so that I can feel confident to achieve them just taking each one as they come, one at time.
My next step is now getting an ECDL Certificate, and that is what I am working on right now.
Will there be Art in the process? There has been some but not as much as I used to, perhaps with time I will become more prolific.
As an artist I have learnt to pace myself sometimes, as art is an expression of what we feel inside and need to get out; no one can force an artist to get things out but themselves, when they feel ready or when they challenge themselves to do so.
Art in any form, is a way of expressing yourself and showing parts of you to the world, which if forced would not be genuine.
I will try, best as I can, to always be a genuine artist, and bring art out of myself only when it feels right and ready.
Until then, be blessed in anything you do and everything surrounding you.
A little homage to my birth town which I deeply miss the days.
Love
Izzyxxx
